From Oscar of Between, Part 27 Excerpt

by
Betsy Warland

– 1 –

It happens.

Happens after twenty years of writing; twenty years of applying; twenty years of “Unfortunately(s) …”

Spring snow in Montreal

Photo credit: Oscar

It happens on a sunny Montreal day as the magic realism of the storm’s creations begins to melt. On this 20th of March, 2013, day: the spring equinox. This day when the length between sunrise and sunset/sunset and sunrise is exactly the same. It happens on this one day of perfect betweenness. Oscar receives the call.

She got the writing grant.

– 2 –

A few nights ago when Oscar began reading Orlando, Woolf had her laughing out loud by page three:

“He was describing, as all poets are for ever describing, nature, and in order to match the shade of green precisely he looked (and here he showed more audacity than most) at the thing itself, which happened to be a laurel bush growing beneath the window. After that, of course, he could write no more. Green in nature was one thing, green in literature another. Nature and letters seem to have a natural antipathy: bring them together and they tear each other to pieces.”

When Oscar was more than twice Orlando’s years, she too was seized by green. Wrote the suite of green poems (“the greed, the gulp of green” and “who could ever speak green?”) in only this blue.

– 3 –

Two nights ago Lise and Oscar see the FIFA documentary on American composer John Cage, a pioneer of indeterminacy in music. Indeterminacy hand-in-hand with First World War.

Oscar intrigued to find that Cage thought of himself more as a listener than a composer (Oscar thinks of herself in this way too). In 4’33”, Cage’s most ground-breaking composition, musicians and audience sit “silently” at the ready for the concert to begin, then discover the ambient soundscape they are in is the music. Listen, for four minutes and thirty-three seconds.

Cage a practitioner of Zen.

As she writes, Oscar waits. A lot. And listens. Often listens far more than inscribes. She never knows where the sounds, rhythms, thoughts, language, movement of the line, image or narrative will take her just as she never knows from moment to moment where life will take her. Surrenders again. And, again.

– 7 –

Cage was devoted to listening to the chance and ambient sounds infusing our daily life. Compositional form was given by the circumstance and specific spatiality that these sounds took place in, or by random patterns based on the solid and broken lines determined by throwing the coins of the I Ching. His atypical compositions necessitated that Cage invent new ways of creating musical score notation.

For him, improvisational music was an illusion, simply a reconfiguration of what the musician had already played or heard, what he already knew.

Poet Phil Hall

Photo credit: Ann Silversides

Guest Writer:
Phil Hall

Perth, Ont
Phil Hall on Wikipedia
Phil Hall at the Writers Union

Image credit: Stuart Kinmond

Image credit: Stuart Kinmond

Elevator

I am going to say next or not

you may think because he is holding a book
or a page she is going to read from it

you may think this is the form of where you are

 if you have read the book I am holding
you might find the plot around you a comfort

 I hope he reads the one about not the one about

it may be expected her mouth has books in it
they are going to fly out no maybe

all my mouth has in it is ton-tongue & roo-roo

 I am scaring you now the elevator is broken
the way up is too thin ascent-spelunking

 angle veer point squeak roo-roo
I am only holding this book to seem easy-going

 one of the wide as if I expected silentia

the story is being loudly shredded with us  in it
& your art is to nod hm hm as if truth

as if perspective as if bucolic as if quorum

 I going am not to say or next
climb up me climb up us climb up them

 I have never told anyone how much I worry

that the root of the tongue is a vector
herded by those who hate us but love a good story

they hate us to say B1 B2 appropriate wins big

 let’s start from I now can’t say & am going
scrape no shadow roo-roo squat cherish

Outline

 As Cezanne depicts the apple taking form
gadgets & appliqués descend on the cabins

 the code is slipping sideways give it more gas

to depict the object by its atmospheric effects
men in padded uniforms politicians & their families

Operation Pressure Cooker now in its 73rd year

 the job to blend in the process of perception
all of our scissors & anthropology confiscated

 into a cohesive academic metrical approach

not giving apples one single black outline
the new snow has been trampled to muck

engineering design production methodologies

 soft gobs on the easel several outlines in blue
the storm has settled for peace in the valley

 after much delay media support wants / shanghaied

rebounding one’s glance captures a shape
the centre-line slush verges a blur news targets (v)

art this usurping bossward promo-guzzle

Image credit: Stuart Kinmond

Image credit: Stuart Kinmond

Carcass

 Stalled at a light on Hunt Club Rd
(a migraine aura coming on) a tap at my window

 I am handed a flyer Don’t Feed the Coyotes

by one I think of the old men I cared for back in 77
was paid to they are all long-dead & near death in me yet

or was it that guy I haven’t thought of him since my 20s

 he used to for our café gatherings recite Casey at the Bat
then yell his only sonnet  pubescent blue babies what a

 nut-bar his name was… he too belongs at the carcass

I am dredging my repertoire of name-sounds notes
Father Doyle Dr Poisson Lloyd Kelly John Van Wagoner

Moses Lily Grattan Woodcock Ernie Alden Link Irene

 they winced the immediate day it beat down
leakage dash & respite shredded facts sloppy tries

 their deeds had no hands no point or gradation no design

did not flirt they articulated the foreigner inside
the sacred mother & will never be forgiven for that raw

disowning clarity all those stories are my snow-chains now

 the other mammals have navels  furred over claw-holds
only mine bald air-brushed out  finds itself studied

 in a home or in therapy or in court

Yaana Dancer

Photo credit: Frank Lee

Featured Reader:
Yaana Dancer

Vancouver, BC
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I read Oscar’s Salon because

the way Betsy builds scenes, events, and details in Oscar of Between becomes, in itself, a kind of camouflage with the narrative lurking beneath, visible only when you work for it or look at it from a different angle. As a kid, I browsed rows of raspberry canes, filling my belly, and moved aside leaves to reveal even more luscious red jewels…or invisible mosquitos. Similarly, in the house, I could ask questions and get a string of words that was some kind of answer but not what I was looking for. I moved aside the surface words and watched and listened for fissures, what might be between and beneath. Things I saw and heard suggested I didn’t belong. I climbed a tree, one of many that surrounded our house, in an effort to see. Perhaps there were answers beyond the ferry and the city. Out there. I travelled to England and thought I might have found where I belonged. I travelled to Greece and was sure I belonged there. In India I felt so uncomfortable that I saw that belonging was more about feeling at home in one’s self rather than a place and that not-belonging works against settling in. The old habits may have me still on tip-toe, ready to flee, but I tell myself that everything I need is nearby as it was always. I need only move aside the leaves to see between.

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Yaana Dancer grew up on a farm tucked up in Lynn Valley between North Vancouver mountains. On various sorts of minimum income, she raised a daughter, travelled, and studied literature. Later, she completed undergrad and graduate degrees in interdisciplinary art, and taught at SFU. Now she’s engrossed with putting words together to hint at what’s beneath and between.

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